Lying.

Don't you hate when people lye? Its so annoying. They say one thing and in an hour say something completely different. It really grind my gears :D But anyway. How can they do this? And why? Why do people have to say something, that is not true?

Failing PT2.

Tonight I realized one thing. People tend to fail when they get overexcited and feel like they can do anything. For example. I won a ticket to a poker tournament. When I played for the ticked I was focused only on the ticket and wining. But when the big tournament started I could not get a good read on my opponents, failed to make smart bets, got reckless on big pots. I was not focused. I was thinking about the big money as a goal and not about the game itself, like rules that can save you from losing. So today's thought. Do not get overexcited, or you will fail at anything you try to do.

Something something.

Past days. They were kinda awesome :D Ok, today was like the worst day of my life, but before my huge hangovers I felt alive for the first time in I dunno, about 7 months. I think it's the people, that make you happy, not booze, smokes and doing crazy shit. I felt so good because of her. The ting is that something as small as a touch or a kiss can make all the difference in your day. And that makes you feel like someone cares about you and I think that it is all that matters. Why? Because you cant exist alone, but you can not live alone.

Fear.

What is fear? Everybody know the feeling when you want to do something or say something, but you're to afraid of failing or being rejected. Weird. How come we feel fear? And what happens when we stop being afraid? If we are not afraid, do we lose all our feelings? Because fear is the feeling we feel the most and of we stop being afraid there are only the other feelings and if we can resist the strongest of them, we will be able to stop feel anything. Really weird to be honest. But what happens when we overcome our fears? Will anything change, or we will fail or get rejected and feel the same we did before? Will the fear grow then? Help me out on this one.

Love

What is love? Is it when you see someone and you smile? Or when you see someone online and you feel that you want to write something to them? Internet will destroy love. Really. When was the last time you met offline, when you were not drunk or something? Party's? Ok. No problem, but when you are drunk, you don't really know that person, but when you get to know him, can you fall in love? Example. You meet a girl at a party. You have fun, maybe make out a little, but you don't really know that person. You write her a message or two, get to know her and get that you like her. But what is that feeling? If she answers with the same thing, you instantly fall for her, but if she does not? You forget. So what is love?

Happiness.

What is happiness? Is it money? Is it love? Maybe it does not exist. Why do we feel happy? And how do we feel when we are happy? Thats what is going trough my mind today.

Friends

What are friends? Do they hit u ? Do they help u? Or what? Whats wrong with some people?

Failing.

What is the definition of failing? Is it, when you have a goal and you fail to achieve it? Or you fail to do something? What is a fail? Why do we fail? Because we do not know how to do something, or do something poorly? Maybe the action we are doing is supposed to fail? Maybe it was never met to happen and some higher something forced us not to do something? It is very difficult to understand what the hell Im trying to say now, or ask, but its just me.

Day 1.

Day one of blogging. I'm going to tell you somethings about me, what I do, what I want to do and what I dislike in me, others and life.
So me. Who am I? I'm just some dude, that wants to be somebody. That's all you need to know now.
What I do? Nothing at the moment. Play poker, hang out with my friends, maybe play a bit guitar.
What is it, that I want? I want to live a good life, make some money, get a girlfriend and stuff like that, make my own club, maybe play poker professionally.
I hate to fail and that I don't have a lot of patients. But still I almost always get up and try again, or learn how to better on a specific action or whatever.
Others? I hate to be told what to do and how. Never do that.
Life? It's unfair. Everyone knows that. Almost everyone feels it.
So who am I? I'm just some dude, that wants to be somebody